Does Hating Ourselves Make Us Strong?

The world where we live in, no, not our Mother Earth, our mind, our chaotic troublesome mind - which brings up series of thoughts. If there were an off switch, how peaceful and depression free we would be currently, right? So, here's this thing, we develop more self hatred when people point out our negatives. We boil up, deep down knowing that all these changes we are going through is hurting us the most than them. Who are people to judge when they do not notice the trying part? Now this is what depression teaches you. Yeah, I know you're wondering how can depression teach us something valuabe? 

Well, we ought to be open for optimism in negatives too. It teaches us, how we handle our mental state, It teaches us lessons about people, how hard they try to handle us, what they think about us, and most importantly, it makes us realize about our flaws. Which is what we try to work upon, isn't it? For some people, my talks wouldn't make any sense, and I've zero issues with it because everyone has their own capacity of understanding things. 

How many times in a day you burst, weep, become anxious, and above that if you are diagnosed with migraine, then boom, the headache just eats up our fragile brain. Our own expectations hurt us. We have changed and so are people. But, pointing us in every negative situation while we are already boiled up is what makes us break more. We are so afraid of judgements that we have no self decision power left within us. It feels like we have given our life's string in others hand, we react, act, behave the way their behaviour or judgements are. I know it's pitiful but, it's alright.

The thing with us is, we are ready to work, we try yet fail. But no one sees our trying part, they just see the negative in us, because somewhere deep down you know too that you have no positivity left inside you. We don't hate people, we are just done with them, right? Everyone has their own problems, no one's happy, no one's problem is tiny, everyone is dealing with rough phase which cannot be compared with each other. But, there is something called empathy, which most people don't practice. 

Does it feels like people are being distant from you? Let it be from your side or theirs. Like, we are not even involved in their situation but still you're suffering by their thoughts and behaviour. What we can do is, let people be as they are. Take a break from them ( Trust me, my therapist recommended me the same, thanks to her ). We can mould ourselves in a better way, but we also know that continuous negativity in the environment makes us break down again. But aren't we strong? We can fight through it. We can show them that we're not what you're judging us for. We're more than that. We're more wise, confident, positive than them. We can make our life happy if we involve us less in negative environment and also by taking a break from people around you. 

People break you, you hate yourself to the core, but when you're done with it, you come as a strong beautiful butterfly not a fragile weak caterpillar. You can't hate anyone more than you hate yourself and that's where we are currently, right? We think no one understands us, well, it's true, they can't until they feel empathetic towards you. You hate yourself in a way that you give your body a disease. Is this what you deserve? Absolutely not. So cheer up! You have a long way to go, we are together in this. 

Ending it in a positive note that, no matter how people judge you, think of you, have a dirty image of you, we can't change that, we can just improve ourselves, even if someone doesn't notice the efforts. Be good, do good. Be kind always.

There's a quote - "The more you stay away from negative bonds, negative environment, unworthy thoughts, the more peace of mind you'd hold, so take a break and come back again, stronger and smarter".

Thanks for reading :)